Hello There..

I'm Back! Sorry for the long hiatus, life, love, and pursuit of happiness happened and continues to happen!

but just like Dory says in Finding Nemo,
"Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming!"

L♥ve To All & Happy Holidays!!

I'll be back!!

Heading on a Vacation!!!



Might post pictures here and there, jealousy is permitted!

Love you all! ♥

I'm Coming Home!!!

I’m coming home, I’m coming home

Tell the World I’m coming home

Let the rain, wash away all the pain of yesterday

I know my kingdom awaits, and they’ve forgiven my mistakes

I’m coming home, I’m coming home

Tell the World that I’m coming home... ♥

Counting the days..

Till my Birthday and absolute AWESOMENESS!!! ♥

Nothing

takes out the taste out of Ramen noodles than fighting with the person you love. :(

Split-screen

“… All you need is love” is a lie,

‘Cause we had love but we still said goodbye,
Now we’re tired battle fighters…
And it stings when it’s nobody’s fault,
‘Cause there’s nothing to blame at the drop of your name,
It’s only the air you took and the breath you left.
So I’ll check the weather wherever you are,
‘Cause I wanna know if you can see the stars tonight.
It might be my only right,

We shared the sadness,
Split-screen sadness…”


(John Mayer - Split-Screen Sadness)

It's because..

If I'm free, it's because I'm always running.

-Jimi Hendrix

Be Beautiful

Nothing makes a woman more beautiful

than the belief that she is beautiful.

- sophia loren

I wasn't

I wasn't sure that love could survive everything we put it through,


But you were. you were sure, you were always sure.

Maybe...

Maybe love, too, is beautiful because it has a wildness that cannot be tamed. I don't know. All I know is that passion can take you up like a house of cards in a tornado, leaving destruction in it's wake. Or it can let you alone because you have built a stone wall against it, set out the armed guards to keep it from touching you.

The real trick is to let it in, but to hold on. To understand that the heart is as vast and wise as the universe, but that we come to know it best from here, this place of gravity and stability, where our feet can still touch the ground.

You were more than fourty-four sunsets.

It's just another day..

Sometimes,

you climb out of bed in the morning
and you think,

I’m not going to make it,
but you laugh inside —
remembering all the times you’ve felt that way.

- Charles Bukowski

We were two parallel lines...

K: We were lines that were never meant to be...

If you only knew...

The saddest person have the most beautiful smile....

I'm Busy..

     
      Honestly, I don't have time to pay attention, or to hate people who hates me...
Cause I'm too busy loving people who loves me. ♥

YOU make sense...

          
            When I looked at you, my life made sense. Even the bad things made sense. They were necessary to make YOU possible.

-Jonathan Safran Foer

Be brave and let go...

Right Now...

Have a little faith in me...

Listen to me...

To V, please listen...

         Any time you sincerely want to make a change, the first thing you must do is to raise your standards.
        When people ask me what really changed my life, I tell them that absolutely the most important thing was changing what I demanded of myself.

         I wrote down all the things I would no longer accept in my life, all the things I would no longer tolerate, and all the things that I aspired to becoming...

No One's Gonna....

from him..

Anything to make you smile
You are the ever-living ghost of what once was
I never want to hear you say
That you'd be better off
Or you liked it that way

But no one is ever gonna love you more than I do
No one's gonna love you more than I do

Assassin

♫You get in, you get done and then you get gone
You never leave a trace, or show your face, you get gone
Should've turned around and left before the sun came up again
But the sun came up again

    I was a killer, was the best they'd ever seen
I'd steal your heart before you ever heard a thing
I'm an assassin and I had a job to do
Little did I know that boy was an assassin too♫

Happiness is...

snuggling with a clean, warm puppy. ♥

Snack

I snack on your jealousy and insecurities.

Homesick...

I just want to be back where I belong now...

the Heart took me to see him in concert last year for my birthday....it was AMAZING. ♥

Find the Sea...

The Least

You come here all the time.
The least you could do is say Hi.

I promise...

I miss BOTH

Found a saved email from you...



This is what I'm going to say when you leave for Bahrain...  lol  :o)

Jemaine: Are you and Lisa gonna get married now?
Bret: I wish, but I don't know. She's got to go to war.
Jemaine: What?
Bret: Yeah, Iraq.
Jemaine: Iraq?
Bret: Yeah.
Jemaine: Lisa?
Bret: Yes, she's in Delta Force. She's been deployed to Fallujah.
Jemaine: But she works in the croissant shop.
Bret: Yeah well, she's got two jobs. She's a pastry chef and a sniper.



I miss FOTC, but I miss you even more. ♥

If I Had One Piece of Advice...

Don't try too hard.

 Seriously.

Dark Surprise

            We all know that our time in this world is limited, and that eventually all of us will end up underneath some sheet, never to wake up. And yet it is always a surprise when it happens to someone we know... It is like walking up the stairs to your bedroom in the dark, and thinking there is one more stair than there is. Your foot falls down, through the air, and there is a sickly moment of dark surprise as you try and readjust the way you thought of things...

Undyingly

Though we may not act like our Father, there is no greater truth than this: We are His. Unalterably.

                                     He loves us. Undyingly.

- Max Lucado

I couldn't

I talked to your Mom for a long time the other night... Your sister tried to pan the camera so I can see you inside the casket. She asked if I wanted to see you.

I coudln't do it.

My Mom told me that she doesn't want to see you in a decorated box as well.

I'd rather have my last memory of you the last day we spent together.

We all miss you.

Looking forward to that day...



Sorry I never told you

All I wanted to say

And now it's too late to hold you

'Cause you've flown away

So far away

Never had I imagined

Living without your smile

Feeling and knowing you hear me

It keeps me alive...

And I know you're shining down on me from heaven

Like so many friends we've lost along the way

And I know eventually we'll be together

One sweet day..

Darling I never showed you

Assumed you'd always be there

I took your presence for granted

But I always cared

And I miss the love we shared

Although the sun will never shine the same again

I'll always look to a brighter day

Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep

You will always listen as I pray

I miss you so much... The multitude of candles and the flowers is but a tiny testimony of how much you are loved and cared for... I will always love you, and you will always be one of the greatest friend I've ever had... Until we meet again...

Rest In Peace...

♥

Today!

We already know...

In order to achieve the soul-searching that we desire and legitimately need, it is important to find a quiet place to be alone.

Only in that silence and solitude are we able to remember that we already know the things that will bring us lasting happiness.

- Matthew Kelly

You’re The Reason I Come Home

 ♫The street’s asleep,
    So I breathe you in deep.
    The tragedies of chemistry,
    People dream of what you and me
    Have found…
    Effortlessly.

   You’re the reason I come home.
   You’re the reason I come home, my love.
   You’re the reason that when everything I know falls apart…
   Well, you’re the reason I come home...♫

I'm not a Gladiator

And while it may feel like you're in a stadium, in front of a crowd screaming that you must die, there are voices in that crowd, if you listen closely, screaming for you to live.



-I Wrote This For You

Memo to you as well

Well, thank you...

because

IMITATION is the highest form of flattery.

It takes courage...

Missing Zzz's

I take back all the times I didn't want to nap when I as a kid.

Just Stop

People need to stop worrying about other people's life.. what other people do, what they think, and what they are up to...

Focus on your OWN life...

Focus on being:
A good daughter/son
A nicer friend
A success in your own career
A loving significant other
A better mother


Stop worrying about other people and work on your own self.

Just stop.

Because in an instant, it could all be taken away..

 

“Stop and appreciate what you have today. Look at what you have with wider eyes, maybe with more compassion and more gratitude for the things that you do have and not the things you don’t have.”

 

 

Rest in Peace, M.A.R

 

 

 

Heaven needed another Angel

Words will never be enough to explain the loss we feel right now... You were gone too soon...

It's only  been two days since I knew, but im still reeling from the news of your passing.. I feel like its just a bad dream, and I just want to wake up, and know that you are ok, and happy somewhere...

You were a great friend, a great confidant, a great brother, great son, a great boyfriend, and a great man of God...

You will sorely be missed by all the people who's life you've touched, by your family, by your friends, and you will always, always have a special place in my heart....

We just have to hold on to the faith and knowledge that you are with Him now...

We LOVE YOU and we will miss you so much...

Box of goodies

Nothing says you are loved than another care package from the boyfriend's parents. ♥

Now if you would only mail yourself to me as well. ♥

Envy

Success makes so many people hate you. I wish it wasn’t that way. It would be wonderful to enjoy success without seeing envy in the eyes of those around you.

-Marilyn Monroe


Girlfriend speaks the truth.

When you see me...

You’ll meet her, she’s very pretty, even though sometimes she’s sad for many days at a time...

You’ll see, when she smiles, you’ll love her.

Maybe I'm just an Optimist!

I believe in sleeping in. I believe in giving 100% when you only have 80%. I believe in jamming out by yourself in the car. I believe in kisses on the forehead. I believe in smiling until your cheeks hurt. I believe that you can have just as much fun sober. I believe in taking chances and making mistakes. I believe in having someone tell you that you’re beautiful. I believe in swinging on swings and running in the rain. I believe in miracles and random acts of kindness. I believe in saying hello to anyone and everyone. I believe in second chances. I believe that everyone’s lucky to be alive.

On the other hand, you're just plain evil

A person who has good thoughts cannot ever be ugly. You can have a wonky nose and a crooked mouth and a double chin and stick-out teeth, but if you have good thoughts they will shine out of your face like sunbeams and you will always look lovely.

I'm a force to be reckoned with.

You take a born-pretty girl and you dress her up in pretty things, curl her pretty hair and she becomes empty, vacuous. The only thing she can claim as a self identity is her one dimensional beauty.
But take a pretty girl and throw some shit on her, and make her fight her way out of it and she’ll grow to be other-worldly radiant and a force to be reckoned with.

A newer, and bigger plate please...

Had my SOQ board today, and my Forensics class starts today as well. The demands of work continues to pile up, at the same time being pulled in different directions while fulfilling all my other duties and responsibilities.

Not only is my plate full, I'm pretty sure I'm going to need a serving plate or a platter here soon enough.

Bring it. ♥

It's all about FAITH....

On being overwhelmed & dissapointed with life, love, and the pursuit of happiness, my Mom simply had this to say to me....

"Anak, you just have to pray... Jesus is in YOUR boat, you just have to wake him up...."

That's a mother's wisdom right there.. and she is right...

The story of Jesus calming the storm teaches us not to be overwhelmed by the chaos that life is sometimes, nor to be burdened with the hurt and pain we experience ...
it teaches us not to be fearful, and to have FAITH that HE is in your boat, HE is in control, and no matter how strong the storm, it too shall pass.

And with life, you just have to believe and trust that no matter how strong the storm is, with faith, you can weather anything.

Anything.

My Friend....

"Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let the pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place...."


Hang in there, VJ... ♥

To be REAL, one must go thru a lot... ♥

“What is REAL?” asked the Rabbit one day, when they were lying side by side near the nursery fender, before Nana came to tidy the room. “Does it mean having things that buzz inside you and a stick-out handle?”

“Real isn’t how you are made,” said the Skin Horse. “It’s a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real.”

“Does it hurt?” asked the Rabbit.

“Sometimes,” said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. “When you are Real you don’t mind being hurt.”

“Does it happen all at once, like being wound up,” he asked, “or bit by bit?”

“It doesn’t happen all at once,” said the Skin Horse. “You become. It takes a long time. That’s why it doesn’t happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don’t matter at all, because once you are Real you can’t be ugly, except to people who don’t understand.”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

~The Velveteen Rabbit, by Margery Williams

Things I Love: your arms around my waist when we sleep at night.. ♥

"What is happiness? It’s waking up in the middle of the night for no reason, shifting under the blankets and feeling the heat of the person next to you. You turn around and see them in their most peaceful, innocent, and vulnerable state. They breathe as though the weight of the world lays on anyone’s shoulder but their own. You smile and kiss their face gently before turning back around and somehow, an involuntary grin forms on your face. Just before you drift off to sleep, you feel an arm wrap around your waist and you know it doesn’t get any better than this."

I'm sorry

I feel sorry for people who have to lie, cheat and steal their way to love or to a relationship...
Have some dignity and self respect....
or better yet,
have some self worth.

You are not alone...

Sometimes it seems like you are the only one in the world who's struggling, who's frustrated, unsatisfied, barely getting by. But that feeling's a lie. And if you just hold on, just find the courage to face it all for another day, someone or something will find you and make it all okay. Because we all need is a little help sometimes. Someone to help us hear the music in the world, to remind us that it won't always be this way...

This you need to know

yes, You...


Don't rely on others to fix your mistakes. because in the end, you're all you've got.

Jealousy can't get you anywhere except nowhere.

Confidence is the key to life. Without confidence, there is no beauty... and without beauty, there is no happiness..

Inspired

A girl should have two things: A smile and a guy who inspires it. ♥

This...

"Its just.... its been a long time since anything as good as you has happened to my life…"

makes my heart stop. ♥

Unwinding...

Like a Boss!!

a very potent Irish Cream



awesome view



peace & quiet



Because it's worth it.. ♥

It’s work. The person you love is rarely worthy of how big your love is. Because no one is worthy of that and maybe no one deserves the burden of it, either. You’ll be let down. You’ll be disappointed and have your trust broken and have a lot of real sucky days. You lose more than you win. You hate the person you love as much as you love him. But, shit, you roll up your sleeves and work - at everything - because that’s what growing older is.

~d.l, mr

And so is mine...

Love is like a wild rose...  Beautiful and calm, but willing to draw blood in its defense...

Some birds aren't meant to be caged, their feathers are just too bright. And when they fly away, the part of you that knows it was a sin to lock them up, does rejoice.


--The Shawshank Redemption

This..

Now Please...

Things that warms your heart

Love! ♥

Baby I miss you ♥

♫ Baby you know I miss you
I just wanna kiss you
But I can't right now
so baby kiss me thru the phone
(kiss me thru the phone)
I'll see you later on..
(kiss me thru the phone)
See you when I get home ♫

A tiny Relationship Status Update

From him:

"I'm glad my status update makes you happy. :o) or at least I hope you approve my status update, since it says "awaiting approval". Lol :o)"

and so I hit approve..

we're now FB official yo! ;)

Because you are...

You are a perfectly acceptable human being right now, this minute. You are just as valid as any other human being, without changing a single thing about yourself. That doesn’t mean you’re not allowed to want to grow, evolve or improve yourself, or you can’t do better sometimes, it just means right now this instant, you are worthy of your own self love. Even if it is hard to love yourself sometimes (and boy, is it!), or you’re struggling with some really difficult stuff in your life, you still deserve it.

So dearest you, be kind to yourself, be kind to others, and give the best version of you that you can give, but know that even in the tough times, you are still valid, worthy and deserving of your own self love.

~fat heffalump

Simply Amazing...

Had the most AMAZING past few days with my Heart. ♥

When someone moves heaven and earth to see you, when someone makes a way to be able to spend time with you despite all odds, you know you're one lucky lady..and I'm thankful for that, each and every day.

I'll See You Soon

I'm counting the hours my Love.... <3

The Difference

"The difference between physical attraction and love is the ability to see the same person at their best and at their worst and still desire them without one false step."

— Adam Chamness

I'm Sure..

It’s too late for anything..  Not only has that ship sailed, I’m pretty sure we sank it the first night.

A Personal Mantra

"My mission in life is not merely to survive, but to thrive; and to do so with some passion, some compassion, some humor, and some style."


— Maya Angelou

I carry Love, Faith, and Hope...

You see in the world what you carry in your heart. ♥

The Best

The best dreams happen when you're awake. ♥

From him.. ♥

He knows exactly how to say it.... ;)

Heartfelt Prayer

Praying for the safety of friends, fellow service members and their families in Japan as well as the entire nation and neighboring countries. May God watch over them, provide for them, and guide them to safety.

For those in Bahrain, may the the political turmoil end, and may there be no further escalation of violence. Watch and protect everybody from harm's way.

Amen.

The Magic of Photoshop

       
        Photoshoped pictures will always make people look good, but it will never hide their insecurities, or their ugly personalities. :)

The Drive

Nothing like a 6 hour drive from California to Phoenix to make you appreciate:

a: when someone else used to do ALL the driving,

and

b: satellite radio. ;)

HE is Love...

"Rather than accepting that we are the loving beings that He created, we have arrogantly thought that we could create ourselves, and then create God. Because we are angry and judgmental, we have projected those characteristics onto Him. We have made up a God in our image. But God remains who He is and always has been: the energy, the thought of unconditional love."

— Marianne Williamson

The Way I Miss You

"When you love someone that much and that person is away from you, sometimes it literally feels like you can’t breathe, as if your body is aching for air. And then that person walks into the room, and all that ache inside of you, all that longing, dissolves and you feel yourself breathe again. But it’s as if he takes the same breath with you. You’re both one."
— Diane Les Becquets, Love, Cajun Style


missing someone dear to you makes even the simple thing, like breathing, difficult...

Never sent...

The hurt began to fade and it was easier to just let go. At least I thought it was. But in every boy I met in the next few years, I found myself looking for you, and when the feelings got too strong I’d write you another letter. But I never sent them, in fear of what I might find. By then, you’d gone on with your life and I didn’t want to think about you loving someone else. I wanted to remember us like we were that summer. I didn’t want to ever forget that."
— The Notebook

All the things I wanted to say, will always be left unsaid..

Truth is, we ALL have letters never sent.

To dance

"I believe there are moments in your life when you have to dance like everyone is watching."

— I Wrote This For You

No What-ifs

You’ll never get anywhere if you go about what-iffing like that. Would Columbus have discovered America if he’d said ‘What if I sink on the way over? What if I meet pirates? What if I never come back?’ He wouldn’t even have started.

When you set up to do something in life, do it with all your heart. If you can't put your heart in it, get yourself out of it.
Live life with no regrets, and no what-ifs.

I'll see you soon my love..

"Distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It's for those knowing a good thing when they see it, even if they don't see it nearly enough."

Can't wait to see you and hold you in my arms again...

History of Laughter

"There is a story about the Greek Gods; they were bored so they invented human beings, but they were still bored so they invented love, then they weren’t bored any longer. So they decided to try love for themselves. And finally, they invented laughter, so they could stand it."
— Feast of Love

the Baron's goodbye...

The truly painful goodbyes are the ones that are never said, and never explained...

Being Grateful..

My heart is 8,292 miles away.. but talking to him and seeing him even for just a few minutes is all worth it.. thank you technology..

Valentines Day ♥

Sweet flowers, loving card, and an awesome Toshiba Netbook, topped with a fabulous dinner. Certainly a day and night to remember. ♥

It's the little things that count. ♥

       when someone wakes up at 6am just to make you coffee eventhough they don't have to be up till 8am, or when someone makes you oatmeal with milk and slices of banana in the middle of the night because you were craving it, hold on to that person...

 

 

 

 

Trauma. ;)

If you like it, you don't necessarily have to put a ring on it... yet.

People get engaged like it's running out of style.

Well kept

  

    I kept that poem you wrote me.
It was tiny and didn't even rhyme.

But the few words that made sense..
Stole my heart and stopped time. ♥

Truer words have never been spoken...

We must always change, renew, and rejuvenate ourselves;
otherwise, we harden.

— Goethe

You know who you all are.. :)

Behind the smile

A girl should have two things: A smile and a guy who inspires it. ♥

Home is where the Heart is

My humble little province is in the National Geographic Travelers Top 20 Best Trips for 2011!! Congratulations my love!

I hope to see you soon. ♥

Homesick

My mom and I were arguing about how many coconut trees she will need to cut down in our property.
Coconut trees. Infront of our house.

God I miss home.

Driving away

‎2010, I bid you adieu.. 2011, it's nice to meet you. ♥






Photo Credit: my simply awesome old camera. :)