The Real

“The real lover is the man who can thrill you by kissing your forehead.”

— Marilyn Monroe

And he does. Everyday. every morning, afternoon, night, and the times inbetween. ♥

The Goal

                    (by José Quintela)  
                                 

   Oh, and win at Life. ♥

 

Something YOU should know...

"When it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, then I'm already better than them."
— Marilyn Monroe

Yes, I'm looking right at you.

At the end




Because at the end of the day, we all want a Superhero to save us....

 

Happily Torn Between

"I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult."

- E.B. White

Weeeeee!!

This morning, I felt like this.. :)

Because I am

"With hair, heels and attitude, honey, I am through the roof."  ♥

-Rupaul

Thankful..

I have so many things to be grateful and thankful for, but you are at the very top of the list.. <3

Please Remind Me When You Can...

“No matter what our achievements might be, we think well of ourselves only in rare moments. We need people to bear witness against our inner judge, who keeps book on our shortcomings and transgressions. We need people to convince us that we are not as bad as we think we are.”


— Eric Hoffe

Instead..

Black & blush lace dress
Blush stilettos
Black clutch
Black bracelet & ring
VIP party, Champagne & Vodka bottles
Party.

instead:

Pajamas & tank top
Fluffy slippers you got me for christmas last year
Sparkling wine
Couch

....instead of a night out of town, I gladly waited for you to get home from work, cuddled on the couch and played PS3 with you. Best spent night ever. <3

Waking up

"I wish I had a thousand words for love, but all that comes to mind is the way you move against me while you sleep, and there are no words for that.."

Right before you leave the bed, you always hug me tight and kiss me multiple times... it's the best wake up call one could ever ask..

Thousands of miles

Yes, You. The distance between you and me protects us from each other, and our loved ones.

Skip

A lady told us we looked great as a couple… then she asked how long we’ve been together…

I jokingly answered, “I only met him a couple of hours ago...”

You smiled at me, turned to her, and then answered, “About a year now… at first she didn’t want anything to do with me, but I finally broke her down.”

My silly heart skipped.

Mabuhay Pilipinas!

Watched a great fight this weekend. Manny Pacquiao did it again and made the country proud. Antonio Margarito gave a good fight as well, but Pacquiao dominated the entire fight.

Watching the fight with you was even amazing. You were cheering "Manny" as loudly as you can, getting the crowd pumped! You were so into the fight, and you were cheering and making friends with all the Filipinos in the crowd. You were cheering louder than I was! To a point that for a moment, I forgot who was Filipino, me or you. :) I was proud of you!

All in all, great fight, great weekend. <3

once again,

Mabuhay ang Pilipinas!!

Change

"Any time you sincerely want to make a change, the first thing you must do is to raise your standards. When people ask me what really changed my life eight years ago, I tell them that absolutely the most important thing was changing what I demanded of myself. I wrote down all the things I would no longer accept in my life, all the things I would no longer tolerate, and all the things that I aspired to becoming.”
-Anthony Robbins

‎"Go home, take a paper bag and cut some eye holes out of it. Put it over your head, look in the mirror and try and evaluate your strengths and weaknesses. And try and be honest."
-- Joan Holloway, Mad Men.

Girlfriend tells it the way it is. She makes me want to wear curve-hugging dresses & kick some serious ass!

Advice

Honey, wanting to be someone you're not is a waste of who you are.

Plus, it's kinda sad.

Makes me wonder why...

I just finished skimming over a diary of some sort that I had kept when I was in college. It brings back memories, but it also makes me wonder why 16 yr old me insisted on writing in light silver metallic pen, the 25 yr old me right now could barely read it...

The notebook contained random thoughts, and emotions. But the barely legible silver ink formed words that conveyed strong feelings of a young girl, hurt by her past, hesitant about her present, yet hopeful for her future... scared but brave... fearful yet full of faith..

It's funny to read something you wrote almost 10, 11 years ago... what's even funnier and almost melodramatic is to realize that certain things in life remains the same. The people might have changed, the situation different, but the emotions, raw as they are, remains constant... that human emotion of love and longing, of happiness and pain, of fear and faith… it also shows you how much a person can change... that what you earnestly believe right now as a universal truth and ideal of who you are and what you stand for, 10 yrs from now might turn out to be nothing but just a shell which you will ultimately shed off.

I think that at one point, when we can, we should pause and take the time to remember where we were, 5, 10 yrs ago. And when you do, look back not to judge or question the past, but rather, just cherish it for what it stands for and the memories it brings back… be it thru photographs, or old diary notebooks… in my case, hopeful thoughts and emotions written in barely legible, light silver metallic pen.

~kfs

Post Script: I've scribbled this down on one of the pages 10 yrs ago. I probably picked it up from somewhere, I can't remember right now but I think it’s fitting:

"Time is like a river… you can’t step into the same water twice. For the flow that has passed you by, will never pass again.
Cherish every moment of your life..."

I wish...

Miko has this way of getting my attention... he plays with his ball, and intentionally, and I repeat, intentionally lets it roll under the couch where he couldn't reach it. Then he sits down and peers under the couch and cry about the ball over and over. Looks up at me, peers under the couch, and whimper. Looks up at me, peers under the couch and whimper again... and repeat. The first few minutes, it's cute, so I torture him and totally ignore him... but we've done this so many times, I know the drill.

After a few minutes, I finally let him win. I stop what I'm doing, go on all fours and reach under the couch for his ball... As soon as he sees the ball in my hand, he gives me this look as if I am god and just performed a miracle. As I hand the ball to him, he looks at me with with his tiny brown eyes full of love, admiration and appreciation. Not minding that I have been intentionally ignoring him or that I been torturing him about the damn ball just a few minutes ago...

Dogs are different than humans in a way that they don't hold on to grudges, or your past mistakes, or your shortcomings.. They don't focus on the wrong you did, but on all the right things you've done. They love you and accept you just for who you are, faults and all, unconditionally and without reservations...

I wish people were like that sometimes...

The Paths We Follow...

"Sometimes we can choose the paths we follow. Sometimes our choices are made for us. And sometimes we have no choice at all."

— Neil Gaiman

So...

This is it!! Ready for an amazing change. ♥

Rain, Rain

It's gloomy in San Diego... Everybody here is so used to the sunny weather, I think I'm the only want who wants it to rain.. The past few days has been pretty gloomy, there's been tiny raindrops falling here and there. I smile a triumphant smile, and my heart skips.. I wish it would just rain.. hard.

There's just something nice about rain falling... Something soothing.. Maybe because it brings back childhood memories... of playing in the rain with no worries in the world... No worry in the world.. God how I wish I could go back to that point.

Another thing I like about the rain is that raindrops are never alone.. Wouldn't that be amazing? Never being alone? When you go down, they go down with you... Always having someone there with you.. I think that's one of the best feeling in the world...

I really wish it would just pour rain today.

Unselfish

Even after all this time the sun never says, "You owe me, Earth,"
Look what happens with a love like that, it lights up the whole sky. ♥

Half Awake

As I was leaving, you kissed me while you were half awake... They are the best kisses I've ever had. ♥

Complete

You don't complete me. Nobody completes me. I complete myself.
You, well, you're the icing on an already perfectly damn good cake. ♥

Hiding Diamonds

I said it. It was quick, it was rushed, but I did. You probably didn't hear it, but to me, it was as loud as a thunder in a thunderstorm. I hid it between happy words, and normal conversation. It was perfectly camouflaged with ordinary words.

It was like trying to hide a diamond among stones.

But you skipped it, and didn’t acknowledge it.

That hurts more than you’ll ever know.

At a Crossroad...

I am coming up at a crossroad in my life. A crossroad that will impact both my career, and my personal life. And it’s hard trying to choose which path to take. I am afraid of making the decision because how would I know if I made the right one? What if I chose path A and that path takes me far away from what I desire in my heart? But how would I know? It is hard to make a choice when logic pulls you in one direction, but your heart pulls you in the opposite way... Which one do you follow? Your heart or your mind? And if you do make the choice, will you be able to live through your decisions and not be plagued by “what-ifs”? I want to be certain, but sadly, life doesn't come with those guarantees..

I guess at the end of the day, I just have to close my eyes, take a deep breath, and chose a path. I have to learn how to make the most out of it. I have to have faith that whatever path I chose, it will lead me to the place where I want to be, teh palce i'm meant to be. And if it doesnt, i have to make the most out of it and move forward. I have to take that risk, and be at peace with it. It won’t be the end of the world. For sure, it will feel like it is. My faith might waver and I might end up questioning myself. I will be afraid, uncertain, and alone. And it does feel lonely when you're at a crossroad, looking at two different paths, trying oh so hard to make the right choice. But if you don't, you'll be stuck at that crossroad, never moving forward.

I have to make a choice, and I have to choose. It’s better than playing it safe and never taking risks, or making difficult choices. Life is, after all, made up of choices, and difficult ones we must make.

A place for my words...

I’ve always tried to quantify my emotions into words… But I know that we could only go as far as assign meaning to letters… and just hope that the emotions behind it does not lose it’s true meaning.

This is the place my words will call home.

Maybe you’ll never stumble upon this page… or maybe you will…
My words will talk of love, of life and the never ending pursuit of happiness…
It will talk of laughters and tears, of victories, triumphs and failures.
Of heartaches and sorrow..

Most especially, my words will talk about YOU.

This is the rear-view mirror to my life. And a hope for the future. ♥